Diary Entry 07/20/09

 Dear Diary,

Today, I felt uncomfortable about who I am as a person, and I am starting to question who I am. I never doubted who I am attracted to, but now, as I grew older, it came to my senses that I may not be normal just like my parents ought me to be – I'm different. This is scaring me; I would not want to disappoint my parents just by being different. I want to talk to my parents about this, I really do, but I didn't, since it seems to be a touchy subject.

I don't want to be labeled "gay"; it's embarrassing. A friend at school even asked me if I am a drag queen. What's a drag queen even? Are those queens who drag people? So I went to the internet and looked for the definition of drag queens, and lo and behold, it's these big people with bright clothing. Are these what gay people are? Just a bunch of people wanting to become girls? If so, then I don't want to be gay, EVER!! 

My mom told me being gay is not nice. She even said not to go to my classmate's house because it is a bad influence on me after taking a big sip of her wine -- she's so cool. Ever since then, I have never talked to that person.

I think that's about it. I wonder what tomorrow brings! Sorry for the rant! here's a cute picture of my dog though!